My Reflection

I have finally decided that I am going to get off my lazy butt and do the things I want to do.  I am going to quit thinking about them and actually DO THEM.  I read blogs every day, follow blogger's on twitter, and think every day I wish I could blog about how I feel, what I am doing, and lessons I learn.
 
So, finally I am going to commit myself to writing here.  A place I can document my goals, my experiences, and most importantly what I’ve learned from them.  I want this blog to be my personal reflection journal.  I want to hold myself accountable for being proactive in continuing to improve myself – in my career, my health, and my relationships.  

Often, I focus on what I am NOT doing, what I am doing WRONG, often a negative based outlook and sometimes an all or nothing attitude.  Along with reading and following other health living blogs, I will begin my own as a commitment to making myself a happier and healthier person.  I will be able to document my progress and go back and see what I have accomplished.

I want to be healthy, both physically and mentally fit.  I love challenging myself physically.  I have run one marathon, 6 half marathons, several 5k’s, and a sprint triathlon.  I try to be as healthy as I can with my food choices, but lately I’ve regressed and would like to get back on the right track (also with my weight).  I suffer from anxiety and often have a negative outlook.  I have emotions and feelings that I haven’t dealt with which has altered my relationship I have with food and my self esteem.  I’m hard on myself and often do not think I am good enough.   My biggest goal is to improve my mental outlook.  Learn from my experiences.  Track my progress and improve how I feel about myself.  My mental health is something that I often ignore.  I identify an issue, convince myself I’m not okay, but then forget about it.  

This is my reflection.